Tired

Im so...really..deeply...tired n exhausted of everything...Like many people want that they wish can stop the time or return back the past...it not gonna happen..


Im tired..but i will give it a try...it juz been how many days...but my heart still not in it...i hope i can change something n bring back the spirit that i lost back again inside of me...but..really..it seem i been pushing myself only instead of trying...


Im tired..that i wish..i really will be hardwork this time...but everything seem down to me...something still lost from part of me...i wanna gain something...dun wanna give up now...i promised myself..it gonna be okay...but for how long i guess it will last...it juz few days..i aldy complained a lot...yesh im lazy...yeah i know people always said lazy doesnt make anything out of u..it not like i didnt know wat am i gonna be if i stay lazy forever...but wat can i sure say if i do like something...100% i will put it through even it take all of me...juz this one...i dunno how to explain...im really exhausted...


Stepping into my Uni aldy made me feel horrible n uncomfortable aura that wan bring me down...gladly..my frens made me cheer up...luv ya guys...but seriously...everything seem annoys to me when it come to study...n any that related to it..even class...n pathway at my faculty...i dun feel happy at all when i walk there like last time...the moody aura haunted me...


Why...my heart cant focus n try to fit in...im tired pushing n forcing it to accept the things that I nearly fully hate it...everyone been working hard..tried their best...but wat i do..nothing...yup...NONE...it not like i dun wanna do it..but..if i do...it will be half hearted...


Im tired saying okay everytime it was REALLY...not okay...how many lies i need to make..seeing me this way now..i miss the old me...


"Something inside this heart that cant refrain itself anymore from darkness that fall within it..."