How sweet it is when remind back the memories we been together..But in flash of light u destroy it...Without hesitate...U kill our beautiful moments...not just that..everything that we had...it pain me a lot with the bad n curse words that u threw to me...U said im the cause of everything..but did u see who the main cause of the whole things from the beginning...Im lecture u..Im saying nonsense to u...that wat u said to me...but doesnt that Me who usually been n acted beside u all this time..?It like stabbing me everytime u threw every single things that never been my blame...U speak like im the villain...yet now i see u the worse one...fren who treated her bestfren that way...u only see ur pains..did u ever feel n see mine?u talked like it is all about me..nothing to do wif urs...u keep blaming n making excuses...telling fake n lies...U not u anymore...if i said this also u will keep on bashing me...
Ever since that day...i stop all connection wif u...i cant stand anymore..u keep on giving me pains..rather than seeing the truth about urself..it hurt so much that i need to be bad guy to make u understand...but then...u keep on attacking me..i tried to be nice..to end everything soft n nicely...yet...u make it more worse..after u gave me so much scars...u never learn how to stop did u...i know u not satisfy wif me...u still wanna show ur anger..i know...u will never be soft..ur heart will remain stone for me....i keep ignore it...everytime i ignore..that single time i wish if u could ever say sorry to me..at least one would be enough...u replied on ur blog..that u wan end everything..i accept it..it ur choice..but yet...y u keep on bashing me..u wan end it...y u keep on attacking me..u said u never keep ur revenge forever..u ar nice person...u will never hate me forever...but..wat i see...last of ur msg saying im still like worse person ever to u...wat kind of END is that..im tired being treated that way..from ur eyes..im such a terrible/horrible or disgusting person...im exhausted...u never learn to accept the truth of ur own weaknesses...the blaming on u..u keep pushing on others..it hurt me a lot...honestly from bottom of my heart..i wan us to be normal back...if that cant be happen...at least a single sorry to me would be enough..so much enough...but at the end..u still being jerk person...from before i never even say bad or curse about u..now after wat u done to me...u teach me to be bad person..now im already one...coz of u...all this time..i dun even dare to hurt u even a lil..dun even dare to say bad things to u...dun even dare to see u sad...but wat the point now..all the past years that we been through...i realize that u never see me as ur real fren...never take the luv that i gave u...never kept the care that i show u...never hold the frenship that been created n formed in ur life inside ur heart...im juz a toy to u which u can toying around like i have never had feelings like u have...i tried to live calm n peace after that..live my own life n i expect u to live urs..but y..u keep on burning my limit..?keep on lighten up my patient?y u do this?wat kind of person ar u now?u not the one i know anymore..wat u have been now?dun u ever questioning that to urself?u rather being hurt badly than accepting the fact u the one who ar wrong all this times...
I didnt say im a good one...i didnt say im the greater one...but after all this happen...i juz can say..im the better one compare to u...never in my life wanna be proud...or showing to others that u ar the worse n bad person...juz i wish...wish n always wish..one day...maybe...u will be in my position n feel wat i suffered all this times coz of U...juz like that..all of this end...at least my END of us not so mean n cruel like urs...how much i wanna show u that i still luv u...but i guess all of that not worth at all since ur heart covered with hatred only for me...hatred...im disappointed coz that tiny lil thing...all of this destroy...this frenship mean nothing to u...im tired...im exhausted...my scars remains forever which u dun even care or dun even notice...even if u apologize now to me..i dun think this heart can ever accept it...u already kill me from the part of ur life.. now it time for me..to erase u entire of my life..u not worth being in part of my memories since u never appreciate it..u are stranger now to me..forever...dun even dare to step in my world anymore..
From this part till my life end..........I Hate U......u change my love to hate for u...yeah....Now...I Hate U....
This song..wat I feel about us... :-
Ever since that day,
I've been feeling,
Both of us already separated,
These feelings,
Will reach you,
In the passing seasons,
I hide my wishes,
Love always like,
A red song,
Painful,
One tear drop,
Flowed.
If i can tell you how this song can relate to wat I feel...we already been separated since that day u condemn me with ur mean n cruel words...these feelings that i wish can reach u...but never even went through u...I hide my wishes which i wan us to be like before again..but u destroy it...i wish again that u will at least say sorry to me n fix it...u never will...our frenship love like a red song that seem covering wif anger..hatred n jealousy of urs...so painful that u dun even understand my heart at all..dun even learn about my pains...one of my tear started flowed after u treated me that kind of behaviour..and now it flows more heavily that u dun even care if it be lake also no point to u since u dun even notice it from the beginning...so torturing n painfully...~
