yesterday i went to break fast with my sweet frens at alamanda...that was my own plan....yeah me planned it..
i feel so guilty...it suppose to be last monday...but i had assignment to do...so much...so the plan was cancel..i feel worse..coz everyone seem ready n can go on monday...after that i planned to go on wednesday..i asked all my fren if they can come...mostly of them can...but some not or have planned...i feel terrible that coz of me i ruined another plan of my frens...sorry to mun...i really didnt mean to ruin her plan...i did asked her many times to come...but i understand i cant harshly force her to come..she already planned before me..so i dun mind if she cant come...but then at the end she coming along...at first i was shocked coz i know she cant come..y suddenly can...made me so guilty..i feel worse like destroying other people plan...i know mun feel sad about it...she wan to enjoy wif her lil bro..but coz of me n others she still come join...she so sweet yet i did horrible things...sorry mun...same to eqa...i know she already planned something on that day...still i force her badly...i want her to come coz i thought mun cant come..i accept mun cant come aldy but for eqa...i feel like i want also her to come coz only me girl left if she cant come..but i feel like being selfish..they both have planned..i ruin everything for them...sincerely apology...
I feel more guilty n horrible that everytime they hang out...n asked me to join...each of that time..mostly..i cant come...but still they didnt force me..they understand it...but for me...they cant come yet i force them to come...so selfish...but deeply inside of me...i feel that i want to make up every single time where i cant go wif them so i planned this..before holiday come n wanna break fast together which everyone include in our group and no one less at least one for this year...but i guess my planned fail...im so noob..honestly this is my first time planned something this big..i was so blur n slow...kinda like so immature...everything other people do it n help me..im like doin nothing..feel like it not my plan...i feel guilty that i nearly destroy the plan yesterday...i was so tired and i tried to be energetic so the mood will not change to worse...i the one making plan so i shud not be weak...i feel sorry to mun..i know she so tired n angry wif me coz i planned it but didnt fulfill it...so sorry mun for being so noob...i guess im no good in making plan..i really feel horrible that i made many person sad...im being so quiet and less smile coz i feel terribly guilty that the mood feel worse coz of me...even most of them noticed it...so many sorry guys...
for the happy part..i enjoy so much yesterday coz everyone of my frens there...my frens so sporting n awesome...went to arcade (taqi was pro dancer...taiki never give up...ali so funny...omar everywhere...lol..mun was awesome winning many times...eqa so energetic...) n playing bowling (for this one..i cant stop laughing..it was hilarious n fun while playing) after eating...not to mention toying around at toys shop (eqa cant stop looking at those plushies..haha..mun was excited to play the token thing..ali with his red big glasses..taiki n omar playing around...taqi with angry bird...).. then blackout at McD...lol for this one...singing in bus... really funny...even it not so much things but i feel so happy n appreciated it so much....thanks for everything guys....thank u so much for coming...i deeply appreciated it...u guys really awesome n fabulous...thanks for coming to my life..u guys rock..!! (>.<)
Btw guys...I want to give u all something yesterday but i forgot to bring it...something that i wanna give to u guys as sincerely being my frens all this time...i appreciated it so much...since i cant give u guys in this short time...coz holiday started for some of u guys...here the pic... :-
Dun worry i will buy one for u..(>.<)
And one video im playing piano...this one for u guys...juz short version of the song...
(i'm playing terrible..if got mistakes ignore it..hehe) :-
Lastly HAPPY HOLIDAY n SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI to all my FRENS n FAMILY..!!
Dun forget to come to my house for raya...(>.<)
Luv ya GUYS so much..!!Muahhhxx..!!
